Monday, August 22, 2011

Yuck! 1 down, 83 to go.

So, only took the first pack of birth control for two weeks.  Uggh.  I can't understand why the pill with the lowest amount of drugs was causing me such problems!  Luckily, a newer, lower hormone drug is now on the market and was prescribed to me today by a doctor filling in for my vacationing doctor.  Yay! Hopefully now I won't get horrible headaches or spotting anymore!  Tonight will be the day one (again) for me.  Downside is that now my ability to start trying for kids is postponed for two more weeks.  So now we will have the count at 1 down, 83 to go.  Blah!

Sunday, August 14, 2011

I hate this,,,,,

So I really hate being on birth control.  I hate how I feel when on it.  It gives me a headache, makes me sleepy all the time, and it makes me moody. grrrrrrr.  9 days down, only 75 more days to go.  Blah! One the other hand, I am still doing well on the diet.  Haven't stepped on a scale again, but know that I have lost a few more pounds cause my pants are getting to be too big.  hehe.  Hopefully this week i can finally start going for bike rides (as long as the weather cooperates).

Friday, August 5, 2011

Blah.... Crap....... Uggggh.....

So my ovaries are out of commission for at least the next 3 months. Ugggh!  I guess it just wasn't meant to be yet.  Hopefully these next three months will fly by and end in a clean bill of health from the doctor.  still, ugggh! I know I use the word hopefully alot, I try to be hopeful but things like this happen and cause me to lose hope.  Not this time.  I know that I will have a kid of my own soon and I will be able to experience all the enjoyments (and sacrifices) of being pregnant.  I also know that through this struggle I am a stronger, more passionate woman which will make me a better mother.  These next three months are all about working on me and my health, so I can share my body, heart and soul with a precious little baby that is worth every ounce of commitment, determination, and sacrifice i have given thus far and will continue to give.  I am not going down without a fight.  This isn't over yet, just delayed.