So as mad as I am about having to work soo freaking hard to get pregnant, I recently snapped out of my funk and am now ready to embark fully on this journey. Plus, I am now not mad at everyone else who keeps getting pregnant so easily. I am taking this new-found serenity and taking time to enjoy life instead of being pissed off at it. I am excited to meet all the babies that I have shunned in the past, and ready to be excited for those who are about to be parents. I know that one day I will have my own kids, but right now it isn't my turn. It will happen when it is our turn, and right now I am going to use all my extra energy, that was used to be mad and frustrated, to be creative and spontaneous and happy.
On my creativity, I painted a giant chalkboard in my spare bedroom/office, so I can use it for school and being more creative. Today, I am also starting on making jewelry from used gift cards (since I work at Starbucks and have tons from just after Christmas). I am starting a new adventure in life, I am starting to be happy with who I am and not be mad about what I am not.